Spring Break 2011

My Spring Break has gone pretty good. Boring, but good. I wish I had done more though. I did alot, but just not as much as I recently had planned :/ I wanted to go to the beach so bad, but those plans went corrupt as well. Hopefully i'll go during the summer. I thought that spring break would give my mind a chance to slow down, but it hasn't. I'm still stressed. I haven't filled out any college applications as of yet. I really should get to work on that. But i'm just so lazy. I really wish that when everyone was born, they came with everything they needed to be taught already inside their brain. Wouldn't life be so much better? I think so.

Where is my Spring Break?

Spring Break really needs to hurry up. School is just so deppressing. I mean, all I really do is sleep. So whats the use? I'm ready to go to the beach, and to lay outside every single day and soak up the rays. Foreal.

4/5/11

Woww..today sucked. Big time. I really hope my days get better, cause so far. They haven't :/ I'm at my all time low right now. Which sucks, cause I can't pull myself out. That, and I don't have a clue how. It's like i'm in this hole that keeps spiraling down and I just keep falling. Pretty sad, isn't it? Not even music helps. That's even sadder. Usualy, music helps everything. But not this time. When will this rain cloud go away?

Sunny skies.

Sunny skies and cloudless days

Hold me close, just so that i'll stay.

Stay by me forever, baby

But look not in my eyes and tell me maybe.

My love is deep. My love is pure.

Hand me the bottle, the one with the cure.

Feed me not the lies of the world

But look at me like I'm the only girl.

This pain I feel, it won't subside.

I only wanted to stand by your side.

I will worry no more

But instead dance out the open door.

My life is your canvas, for your design.

Look at me, please, and tell me "You will forever be mine."

Bad days only get worse.

I honestly don't know why i'm so upset. I do however blame myself for trying so hard. You wern't worth it or my time. Really, you wern't. I was just there, for your own personal use. Yeah, well now it's personal. It's not like I liked you. No of course not, because that would be just tragic. Wouldn't it? Liking someone, alot. Hmm yeah, no. It's not like what you did upset me. It's not like my feelings even mattered. Yours do, so why not mine? Am I really not worth your time? Is that it? Or is there some other unexplainable excuse you'd like to give me. Because I'm sure as hell that there isn't one. But go ahead, try me. Poke me and watch me bleed. Torcher me and watch me scream. Because really, this is life. It had to have happened to me sooner or later. So congradilations. You've mastered at the pitiful game of breaking hearts. Wanna cookie? Too bad.

Boys suck.

I want that perfect fairytale. That happy ending. That once in a life-time feeling. I want to feel special, without having to try. I want what every girl wants. To be told "You're beautiful". I want love. And one day, I'll have it. The perfect form of it. But for now, I'll keep looking far beyond that rainbow. And wait. I'll wait for the day that I meet my prince charming. The love of my life.